This week has been a stressful one for me. As we’re winding down the semester, completing my first year at Illinois State as a transfer, I’m becoming more and more nervous about the ending results in my classes. Basically expecting the worst. Throughout today I spent a lot of time calculating what my final grades might be and thinking of ways I can change what I wasn’t pleased with. Then I began to think up all the different scenarios that would occur if I didn’t receive the grade required in one of my classes to move forward in my major, only adding on to my stress. It’s one in the morning right now and all the negative thoughts are still running through my mind, so I decided to open up my Confident Woman Devotional by Joyce Meyer and flip to today’s reading. (Every time I read out of this devotional it seems to be speaking to the very thing I’m going through at the moment). The title of today’s reading is “Expect Good Things,” when I first read this I giggled to myself because I’ve been doing the complete opposite this whole time. In the reading Joyce reminds me self-doubt is basically fear of being wrong and fear is not a spirit I have received from The Lord. “Doubt is a fear of negative things happening, but faith expects good things to take place.” And when I think about it, it’s silly of me to expect the worst when I’ve seen God do tremendous things in my life thus far, especially concerning my education. He has brought me so far in all aspects of my life so what could possible stop Him from moving me forward?
She ended with a prayer which read:
Lord, You have shown me the surpassing riches of Your grace and kindness in Christ Jesus. I know that Your heart only wants what is best for me. I look to you and by faith I expect good things to come. Amen.
At this moment I’m choosing to let go of all the negativity and placing them on Christ’s shoulders as He requires us to do, I hope you’ll do the same.
Peace + Love